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Paranoid; Buzz's UV Rp #2
Topic Started: Oct 29 2010, 02:45 AM (229 Views)
Buzzsaw
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Paranoid: is a thought process heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and/or delusion. Paranoid thinking typically includes persecutory beliefs concerning a perceived threat towards oneself. Historically, this characterization was used to describe any delusional state.


What kind of life can you have when you are always looking over your shoulder? Wondering when the next bombshell is going to drop on you or wondering which person close to you will sell you out for bigger and better things….it’s enough to drive a man crazy. When you get a thought in your head it will stew….you will think and re-think about it….you will lay in bed and the idea will keep you awake….it will take over your everyday life….the thought becomes an obsession and you convince yourself you see things that are not there….you replay conversations and twist the words to make it fit….you re-live experiences and look for the slightest evidence that proves this far fetched idea is in fact true….

The seed of doubt had been planted….and I told myself none if it was true….but the thought kept stirring and I kept replaying things over and over again, I knew what Tim was trying to do and I was furious with myself for letting him get to me but it shows you how will he knew me….I could never just let something like this go….I would need proof to prove he was full of shit and that would mean I would take time away from getting ready for the CZW Ultraviolent Falls Count Anywhere Frenzy Match to do some soul searching…Tim had put doubt into my head….doubt about Morgan…..doubt about Sid….hell I even started having doubt about Sledge….I was playing right into there hands by spending way too much time inside my head…..

It was affecting my sleep….I would lay in bed and just look at Morgan…..her naked body next to mine….she had gone out of her way to please me since that night with Tim…she was fucking my brains out on a nightly bases, but why? Was it because she wanted to prove that she loved me like she kept telling me over and over again or was it to get me back into a satisfied state of mine so that I would forget what I heard? I asked myself if this was really Jakob’s plan….to have his own sister get close to me….so close she was putting her body on the line for me….could a brother really stomach the idea of whoring his own sister out to an enemy, and if this was really his plan then why would Tim ruin it….what could he gain by getting loose lipped about a plan that Jakob had set in motion….so the logical thought was that he was full of shit and Morgan was with me because she really wanted to be with me…..or had Tim been instructed to tell me this in hopes of trying to gain my trust again and Morgan was instructed to keep up the plan in hopes of me being so confused that I didn’t know who to trust?

She swore that she was loyal to me and me only but she once claimed to be only loyal to Jakob….and was her situation any different with me….sure she now had a voice but wasn’t she serving me both in the ring and out? She told me the night we met that she wanted to be here own person and sure she was for a bit but she had fallen back into my shadow…I wasn’t going to be like her brother and allow her to come to the ring with me…..I cared to much about her to want to see her get hurt or even worse….I never wanted to put myself in the position of having to choice a match or her….but that’s just what I had to do at Hatewave…I didn’t want her to get involved but she came out but why….was it to truly help me or deep down did she miss the spotlight? When you are out of the spotlight and off of TV you are forgotten and will do desperate things to get it back….for me it was working any independent company that would have in hopes of getting it back, could that desperation lead Morgan to be with her families biggest enemy? She says she’s here for me….but what does she gain from it?

She was unable to get a job on her own…and Jakob wasn’t willing to bring her along for the rid, she was left back to tend to the house while her brothers were away, its not the life she wanted…she needed to be out there but was I giving her what she wanted. Morgan was a heartless bitch but these days she seemed softer, had I tamed her wild ways, would she jump at the first chance to once again be the bitch she had been under Jakob, should I just allow her to go back to her old ways with me? I was starting to second guess her and her motives….every time she went I wondered where she had been….I wanted to grab her phone when she was in the shower and scroll through the call log but it was locked…..was she hiding something….or was it because we were always on the road and it was locked because she feared someone from the crew would grab it? Yeah she had used that phone to send me naked pictures….it had to be because she was worried about someone other than me getting a hold of the phone….she wasn’t hiding anything from me….right?.......

Staff meeting are always a pain in the ass…..but when you are on the eve of a pay per view they become more of a pain….everyone wants to make sure everyone is going to be in the right place at the right time so the suits will delegate some of their tasks to the road agents….to guys like Sid Simelia….he gets all the so called ‘ultraviolent’ guys up to date and this week is no different, only problem is that all the ‘ultraviolent’ are in the same match minus Waylon Krew….but it’s his job and his job has to come first over our friendship….but the fact is that I hear the way he talks about some of the guys he’s in charge of….they look at him like a washed up piece of crap….like they don’t need to listen to him and his warnings because they were smarter than Sid and would never have t sink to the lowly Road Agent roll…..but it wasn’t like that with me….I didn’t look at Sid with pity, he was luck to have the job, I could be so lucky to have a job like that when my wrestling days are over, I think that’s why we bonded. The friendship was bonded over beers and stories of our past….it was a dream match wanted by a feud and made for a great debate on how it would have gone in our prime….I thought Sid saw a lot of himself in me….or maybe a better version, he had not had the success I had had, but I always got the feeling he was sharing my success….

We bonded shortly after I won the Ultraviolent Championship…..strange timing now that I look back on it…..sure I had had a troubled past and some in this company saw me as a walking law suit so it made since that Sid sort of baby sit me on the road….that’s what Road Agents did mostly….but I was considered high risk from the get go and yet it wasn’t till I had gold around my waist that Sid came around…..but was that because Tim was always around or was it because I didn’t become important until I had gold? Sure Sid and I talked before that but it wasn’t till Tim signed Jakob that I found myself traveling from show to show with only Morgan….and sure we all stay in the same few places, the higher price talent stay at the top of the line places but I had most of my check going out to lawsuits and child support so I stayed at the cheaper hotels and someone like Sid on a Road Agent’s salary would be staying at the same type of places. Drinking buddies….it’s how it started but it was no longer the Road Agent/Talent interaction, no we were friends but would that last when I lost this piece of gold?......

Tim had a point, Sid’s stock had risen since he was running around with me….I had seen it first hand, people in this company that looked down at him were now acting like they were old friends….wrestlers that had once just blown him off where now hanging on his every word and asking for his advice…..his ideas where being listen too during planning sessions instead of being dismissed as the ideas of someone who had no idea….what had changed? I had changed……I had changed the way people saw him, everyone knew we were friends and Sid had said it himself…. ‘MY STOCK IN THIS COMPANY WAS ON THE RAISE’…..people wanting things from me would surly try to use Sid to pass the idea or thought onto me….I was one of his guys and he knew I was in demand….I never cared if people could make a buck off me…..as a wrestle I was use to it, people are always plastering your face on something to sell but this wasn’t using me to sell product…..Sid was becoming more of a presence backstage because he had my ear….what else could have taken him from a door mat road agent to a part of the elite back stage staff in the CZW?.....

He was like my brother…..I got into the business with him, cut my teeth with him in the same crappy gym. Logan Braddock aka Sledge…..we dreamed of one day headlining a company or at the very least holding tag team gold…..we were two young kids with a dream and unlike most our dreams came true…..but at what cost? Sure we had been the headliners at shows, each of us had held World Title gold and yeah we had captured tag team gold a few times but the days of us being kids with a dream was over….we were lucky now to just be able to manage a polite hello…..it’s what happens when two alpha dogs are gunning for the same prize, sure we had done a good job of staying out of each others way….competed for different titles but jealousy had a way of still striking….it’s not a surprise the wrestlers know where they stand in a company….who’s t-shirts are selling….who’s stock is higher…..from the start Sledge was the bigger star and I’d be lying if I said I was a bit jealous of his fame….but slowly over time his stock began to decline and it was around the same time mine was on the raise….it was bound to blow up……

We use to laugh when a tag team would blow up or one would turn on the other….we always said in every tag team there was a star and a clinger…..but we always stop short when it came to applying this to us…..we didn’t see ourselves as a traditional tag team, not we were two single wrestlers that would tag up when needed…..but we were kidding ourselves….it was only a matter of time before one of us sold the other out…..in our case it was Sledge who turned his back on me……it’s something that forever killed our friendship. Sure we were civil towards each other but there was still that doubt, that feeling that I could still never truly trust him…..I was always wondering what his motives were and I didn’t need to worry about that here, but guilt got the better of me….I had kept tabs on Sledge and knew he was sitting at home and out of work….the DCWL closing it’s doors had killed his career and it was me and not Tim that set out to help him….what was I hoping for….maybe some loyalty from my former friend….I surly wasn’t expecting him to do my dirty work or lay down for me but GOD DAMN I’m the one who put him in this match! There would have been a good chance that he wouldn’t have been booked on Horrorcore if it wasn’t for me…..he wasn’t exactly tearing it up here…..and I knew he could use the paycheck but did I get a thank you, HELL NO…..he jumped down my throat and told me how this match was going to be, I had never asked him to help me or watch my back….but that’s what he thought this was about……STUPID BASTARD!!!….

I had given him an opportunity at a title….what other champion was willing to do this for him….but at the end of the day it’s about what he does with that opportunity…..and these days it seems Sledge is a lone wolf….if I have felt neglected I couldn’t imagine what he must feel like…Tim was against him joining and ever since he had only a handful of conversations with him….from what I heard Tim would even walk right past him at shows without a word….so he was in a tough spot….so tough would he once again look to make me a victim for his own gain? The more I thought about it the more it made sense….Tim had put the idea in my head….he was worried that the two of us would team up to take out Jakob, well what if it was a trap…..what if I should be worried about being teamed up against. Sledge had shown he was capable of turning his back on me…he had done it before so why should this time be any different. I’m successful here in the CZW….a champion and he is struggling to fine his way and wins here. He had shown he could be jealous of my success how could I be positive that Jakob and Tim hadn’t gotten to him…sure I got him his job but for someone like Sledge money talks and how much would it take for him to help someone like Jakob Mayhem?......



The Golden Monkey Bar
389 Lonsdale Street
Melbourne, Australia



Was I just being paranoid? Maybe but after days of looking at everything….replaying every conversation in my head I took drastic measures….there was only one way to see what the people around me were up to…..what they were doing and more important who they with. He came highly recommended, tops here in Australia…his name was Angus…and I had hired him to follow three people….Morgan Mayhem…..Sid Simelia……and Sledge…..sure it seemed insane but I had to know…..I had to know what they were up too. So I sat here at this bar and waited. Then a tall man dressed in a blue jean jacket walked into the bar and I knew at once this was my guy…..he just screamed private investigator, like he was trying to look cool and important as he walked up to me, we had only talked on the phone but I was guessing by who I had wanted followed he knew who I was….

Angus: You Stone?

Ha, he had lowered his voice, it didn’t have this much bass in it on the phone….

Buzzsaw: Yeah I’m him…

Angus: You have the money?


Right to business I see……

Buzzsaw: Depends did you find anything out?

Angus: That’s wasn’t the deal Stone….you wanted three people followed, you wanted a detail report on what and WHO they have been seeing, I have that report with pictures….


He pulled out a file from within his jacket and laid it on the bar but didn’t remove his hand…..

Angus: there is some interesting stuff in here, but it’s going to cost you to see and read it, now you know my price, three grand for each person, so the way I see it is that you owe me nine thousand dollars pal.

Nine grand for piece of mind…or to add to the paranoia that I’m having about the people around me….I have to know….it’s driving me nuts, and pull out the stack of money and slam it down on the bar….yeah I don’t blame him for counting it….it’s what I would do too…..

Angus: 8,800, 8,900 and 9,000…good, all there, and this is for you Mr. Stone, pleasure doing business with you.

He smiles at me as he pockets the cash and slides the file my way….he is barely at the door before I pulled the folder in front of me….

Waitress: You don’t want to read that!

Buzzsaw: What?

Waitress: I said do you want a refill?

Buzzsaw: Sure that’s fine….


Well here goes…….


MORGAN MAYHEM


It was pretty basic stuff….stuff that I knew already….hair appointment….yeah she got her hair cut and colored this week, a stop off at a Burlesque Store….yeah I remember that night very well….and a few lunches….Angus’s notes had nothing but then I came to a point that said drinks….see pictures…..and as I flipped through them I stop in horror…..the picture was very clear…..Morgan sitting with her brother…..EZRA MAYHEM!!!!!! It was a shot to the gut….this proved she was back working for her brother right? I mean no way in hell Ezra would meet with her unless they were working together…..I continues looking at the notes on Morgan and at the pictures…it was just this one time, the day after Tim had come to our hotel room….I had to confront her, needed to know what I was up against….I did just that that very night…..

When I got back to the hotel she had the lights up and about forty candles burning….she was waiting for me in a short black silk lingerie and her dark hair pulled back….she smiles softly and runs her thumbs up her shoulders and underneath the two straps….pulling them away from her body and over her shoulders the gown falls to the floor leaver her standing in front of me naked….nice try sweetheart, isn’t going to work tonight and as I flip on the lights her smile turns into a look of shock…..


Morgan Mayhem: Way to kill the mood!

Buzzsaw: The mood was dead long before I walked in.

Morgan Mayhem: What’s your problem, are you drunk?

Buzzsaw: What’s my problem, oh nothing hey just wondering if you have see your brother lately….

Morgan Mayhem: Oh god not this shit again, Derek I’m not working with Jakob you jackass, I’m standing here naked in front of you….

Buzzsaw: So you haven’t seen them….

Morgan Mayhem: NO!

Buzzsaw: Then baby you must have one hell of a clone…


The pictures hit her in the face….she goes from shocked….to pissed....to looking like she had just been caught trying to steal something……

Morgan Mayhem: I can explain this…..

Buzzsaw: Explain what….you haven’t seen them right?

Morgan Mayhem: It was only Ezra, I wanted to try and have him talk with Jakob about my contract and this damn photo shoot, it wasn’t about you I swear….

Buzzsaw: BULLSHIT! YOU ARE TRYING TO FUCK ME OVER AREN’T YOU…..

Morgan Mayhem: Derek I swear, I’m still under contract with Total Mayhem, Jakob can farm me out for anything, I talked with my lawyer and the only way I can get out of it is if he voids the contract…..

Buzzsaw: So what did you do, make a deal, he wins the UV Title and you get your freedom?

Morgan Mayhem: No Derek, I begged Ezra to talk some since into him….I would have told you but Tim was in your head, he has you thinking I could possible go back to Jakob or that I’m working with him, can’t you see this is what he wants you to think, he’s getting into your head Derek, I swear to you I’m not working against you.


She picks up her gown as the tears begin to swell in her eyes…

Morgan Mayhem: You have to believe me Derek….I love you! DEREK!!!!

I turned my back and stormed out of the room leaving her there with the photos…she was a Mayhem….she was capably of anything…..I have seen here do the unthinkable to people just because Jakob had told her too…..I didn’t know what to believe….yeah there was a meeting with a lawyer on the list of activities….but was she telling the truth or just covering her tracks? All I knew was there was a feeling in my gut that needed to be squashed with heavy amounts of liquor…..


Sid Simelia


I wasn’t seeing straight as I looked up and into the eyes of the waitress…there were three of her that morphed into one red head that was giving me the evil eye….I motioned for her to refill my glass and she paused….so I grabbed the damn bottle out of her hand and she retreated back against the wall….I started to pour and my glass was about half way full when the bottle was pulled out of my hand….well looks like someone was going to die tonight…..I couldn’t see his face but my hand found his throat…..and as I squeezed his face went from a blur to coming into focus…..

Sid Simelia: WHAT…..THE…..FUCK….BUZZ……

I heard screams and glass shattering…..it took me a few seconds before I let go of his throat…..

Sid Simelia: Put….the ….phone….down…., I’m fine, he’s just a bit drunk, don’t call the cops….

I look over at the waitress and she has the receiver in her hand…..she looks at Sid and then back at me……

Sid Simelia: Please, I’ll get him out of here, there is no need for the cops.

She puts the phone down and just looks at us…..

Sid Simelia: Come on Buzz, we have to leave….

Buzzsaw: Fuck you, I still have a drink to finish….

Sid Simelia: There is a car outside and you are going back to the hotel, Morgan is freaking out….


Without warning he hooks me around the arm and I’m onto my feet…..and out the door and into the back seat of a car…..

Sid Simelia: What the hell is wrong with you Buzz, Morgan called me in tears freaking out, she said you had her followed…..

Buzzsaw: She’s not the only one I had followed….


Truth was I was just as disturbed about what good old Sid was up too….sure it was his job to watch over the Ultraviolent guys but it seemed he had been making some new friends these days….been meeting all the guys in the frenzy match out and about….he met up with Garrett Williams for dinner at steak house….the two looked like old friends….a tattoo and piercing shop with Axel St. James, where as the picture show the two were bonding over Sid’s new tattoo…..a fucking game expo with Rosman Ballard where him and Rosman where shot playing World of Warcraft and from what Angus saw he even walked out with the game and now was playing…..met up at a strip club with Sledge and had even bought good old Logan lap dance after lap dance…..and the real kicker was he met Tim and Jakob the night Angus met me….the three of them, sitting at a table and the picture that was still burned into my head was the one with Sid shaking the hand of Jakob Mayhem…..

Sid Simelia: YOU HAD ME FOLLOWED!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM BUZZ!?!

Buzzsaw: Glad that I did it, seems you are getting a bit chummy with the very men trying to kill me these days Sid, trying to make sure you are in good with everyone so who ever wins the belt you will still be safe?

Sid Simelia: IT’S MY FUCKING JOB MAN AND YOU KNOW THAT! TIM IS IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD, MORGAN WAS RIGHT, YOU NEED TO BE CAREFUL, YOU ARE PLAYING RIGHT INTO THE HANDS OF JAKOB…..

Buzzsaw: Doesn’t explain why you were with him….

Sid Simelia: Get it through your head man, IT’S MY JOB! I’m in charge of keeping you all happy, so yeah I went out with these guys but what your little private eye didn’t tell you was I only spent about 20 mins with all of them. I check in with these guys, Rosman was already at that expo and I stopped by to drop off a form he needed signed, that game was given to me, Sledge was at the strip club and he needed an advance on his pay, so I gave him some cash until Sunday, Axel was going to get new ink and the suits wanted to make sure he didn’t cover his entire face on the eve of a ppv, that tattoo I was showing him, I’VE HAD IT FOR YEARS!!! And as for Jakob, well that was Timmy’s idea, my guess is he knew you hired this clown and wanted to make it look like we were meeting, there was no point to it but Tim called my boss to set it up so I had to go, it was over quick, he asked what time he needed to check in and the grabbed my hand to shake it…..


Could all this be true? Fuck was I losing my mind……

Sid Simelia: Man you have to stop looking over your shoulder man.

Buzzsaw: Yeah well then how do you explain the shit he found out about Sledge, he’s been meeting with Tim…..

Sid Simelia: HE’S HIS AGENT MAN! Think about it, Sledge is in that match, Tim would have to met with him, you need to realize that we are not out to fuck you man, Tim put that idea in your head to get you off your game, him and Jakob both know you are the man to beat and they figure they are out of options, but Buzz I’m telling you man you need to knock this shit off and get out of your head man. You have an opportunity here Buzz, I don’t know if you noticed this your not but the powers that be have been moving you up the card, the UV Title match use to be an afterthought on the ppv, hell sometimes even the opening match. They thought of that title as the lowest on the ladder but since you have won it it’s been getting respect and that’s due to you man. Your match is over both the TV Title and the X Title and that’s a first for the UV Title and now that we are going to Japan, well big things are in story for you but you have to get your head on straight man. You can’t be running around thinking everyone is out to get you, I sure as hell am not, yeah I am suppose to be watching out for you but we are friends man, how can you question that? And as for Morgan, she’s in love with you man, and you need to tell her you trust her, tonight!


I was crazy….Sid was making since, damn it, and as the car pulled up to the hotel I knew I was going to have to grovel at Morgan’s feet….she was so upset….I was going to have to make it up to her….maybe do something special for her in Japan….Sid walked me in and put me on the elevator…..as it climbed to my floor I had and idea…..of course it made perfect sense….I needed someone to watch my back….I was freaking everyone around me out but I had my reasons….what I needed was someone loyal and that I could trust and I knew the perfect person…..as I pulled out my phone and made the call I knew they would come in a moments notice……

Buzzsaw: Hey….I need a favor……


~FIN~
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