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Toxic Relationship; Story of my Life for the last 13 yrs
Topic Started: Sep 22 2015, 09:04 PM (56 Views)
dixonsvixon
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Toxic Relationships is about how I met three men who would all change my life for the good and bad in just over a 13 yr time frame.

Tony was the first guy. We dated from May 2002 to Oct 2003. He was my first boyfriend, kiss amd sexual encounter. He was also the first guy to abuse me.

Mike was the second guy. Though we never dated he played a huge part in my life from April 2003 to December 2006. He started out Tony's friend, but quickly became one of my bestfriends and ally after Tony introduced us. He lived in Canada and though we talked about possibly starting a relationship he took to long about telling me how he really felt. He waited until I met and married my husband. He was the only guy who ever really truly understood me and knew that I was on the heavy side due to a thyroid disease, but always made me feel like I was everything in the world to him.

Joshua was the third guy I met and the one I ended up marrying. Again I met him due to Tony. He had hacked my yahoo account and wrote all over my profile the word bitch. Josh sente an offline message saying that by the sounds of my quote I did not sound like a bitch. I sent him back a message asking him what he meant by that. He said to check my profile, so I did. We started talking to each other and found out we had a lot on common. We met on my birthday in July of 2004 and got married two weeks later. He was the main abuser in my life and at times still is.

Story to follow.....here soon

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darrensgirl

This sounds like a very interesting story. I can not wait to read more.
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Nickschick

I am very interested in seeing what all happens in this story.
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dixonsvixon
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The year was 2001 and I was 24. I was working at Nationwide Ins. and sick of being alone. I met a girl named Tiffany and we became quick friends, because we were huge fans of Jon Bon Jovi and Poison.
Tiffany introduced me to chatrooms, and so our quest for the perfect men started. The heartaches soon started for me too. Due to a thyroid condition called hypoactive thyroidism I had always been over weight, and most of the men on the chatrooms were all out looking for a Barbie doll or someone just to sleep with. They all were gung ho to talk to me until they would ask for a pic and then once they got it they would disappear. So at the beginning of 2002 I decided to try my hand at some BBW sites. Where men and women would go looking for heavy set people. I had a few hits between the sites and the chatrooms. I even met a couple of guys off of them. On May 19, 2002 I got a hit on one of the BBW sites that I was on. It sounded very promising and I was happy. His name was Tony and he lived Columbus, and we discovered that we graduated high school together in 1996. We talked on Wed night on yahoo messenger for 3 hrs and he asked if he could have my phone num, so I gave it to him and the next night we talked on the phone for 2 hrs and then he asked if he could come over the next night and take me out somewhere. I told him I couldn't because I was babysitting my niece, so he just came over and watched movies. I had a bad vibe though and thought to myself I am going to be smothered with this relationship. I thought to myself maybe I'm not as ready for a relationship as I had thought I was two months prior. We really just wanted two different things out of a relationship. However, I overlooked those feelings I was having and on May 22, 2002 Tony and I officially started dating. That was also the night that I got my first kiss. The next night I did something (that to this day I still regret) I let him go down on me and be my first official sexual encounter. I was a virgin and planned to stay that way until I got married. But Tony took that as I wanted to go all the way into that kind of relationship, and that is how our relationship started taking a turn for the worst. He expected us to play every night and constantly told me that I was a bitch and a tease. But he kind of laid off that subject for awhile.
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dixonsvixon
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But in June we had a community yard sale in the mobile home park where Tony bought my cousins wedding set, because her and her fiance decided not to get married. He tried the rest of the month to get me to put the engagement ring on. But I just wasn't ready to be engaged. We made it through the rest of June with no issues, but we still argued on a daily basis over the fact that I did not want to have sex with him. In July I went to VA with my mom and aunt. It was the first time in two months that I could breathe without Tony down my throat about sex and how I was supposed to act in a relationship. On July 25th my nephew was born and I sat and contemplated that day about what I wanted out of life. I had made up my mind that I was telling Tony that I wasn't ready for a relationship like he wanted then. I had made up my mind that I wanted to date other guys and explore my options in the men department. So I had decided that he was not allowed over before 6 pm and had to leave at 9 pm, because I needed my space.
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dixonsvixon
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Two days later when he came over he told me that I wasn't giving our relationship 100%. I told him that I felt like he was smothering me and that he was pushing me into saying something that I was not ready to say, because it was not true. I love you to me was to be said when I absolutely meant it. I didn't mean it how he wanted me too. I only loved him as a friend. And as long as he kept smothering me I would never love him the way he wanted me too. Then he told me that I was not allowed to go job hunting the next day with my bestfriends boyfriend, because he was afraid that he was trying to steal me away from him. I told him that he was a very insecure person, and telling me who I could and couldn't be friends with would push me away and cause me not to love or like him.
I was determined that he was not going to dictate who was in my life as my friends, so I went job hunting with Dennis the next day, because he offered to take me around. And we were nothing more than friends.
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dixonsvixon
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So the next night Tony told me that he doesn't date the traditional ways. Where he comes over and picks me up on a Fri or Sat night and takes me out some where. He said he has to be with me all the time. I told him I hated being smothered, and that was what he was doing. He asked me what I was gonna so when we got a place together. I told him I would run away. I was determined to get my stuff back from him especially some pics I was stupid enough to let him take, because I didn't want him using them against me like he had previous girlfriends.
Every once in awhile I would lie to him and tell him we were going to Celina to visit family, but my mom and I would sneek off to see a movie and go out to eat just to have some time alone without him always around. He was always pissed at me when he found out, but I told him if he would give me space then I wouldn't feel the need to lie to him.
Well July 15th rolled around and I turned 25. Tony took me out for dinner and we managed to get through the day without fighting. But something was still missing, and Tony still made me feel like I could never do anything right. The rest of July was crappy with Tony, but I managed to make it through.
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