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Episode 6; Final 16 - Nexus
Topic Started: Dec 20 2016, 06:52 PM (129 Views)
Tyrael
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This is my worst nightmare
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No, I was at work and I had to stop in the middle of a sentence.

Hmmm, I always seem to get sick after dealing with a horde of gremlinesque kids on Thursday afternoons

Funny that

I plan to down a whole half-gallon of apple juice and try to work on this to the best of my ability. *blarfs*

The evil cackle was because that IC played out perfectly. Winston scored egregiously high, he and Symmetra win again and put more target on their back, the whole Heaven Alliance scored high which makes them targets, yet D.Va and Soldier are still vulnerable. Meanwhile I scored fairly low because oh I'm so dopey lol I could've got 1000 on that (just kidding wtf Winston I was like "if I go for 15 that should net me the win")

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should Diablo be my F2

Angel and Devil unite in a final battle for the ages

Just kidding he's kind of constantly on the bottom while I'm a marvelous CPN haggress

Just kidding
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Oh wait what's this

Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat
Karass
 
This is why you are the social threat


AAAAAAH NO THIS IS EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED :O O: :O :O O:

ALERT ALERT KARASS'S BORK DOES ME A CONCERN

I'M BAMBOOZLED, HECKIN' WOOF

don't worry I now know that there is an idol in Reck's MS profile left just for me :)

(but seriously, how do you talk to everyone but not be a social threat? Or is Karass just overstating things?)
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NOT A SOCIAL THREAT

THE SOCIAL THREAT

IMMA DIE
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I HAVE SEVERAL THOUSAND THOUGHTS BUT IT IS ALSO CHRISTMAS WEEKEND SO I JUST HAVE TO FIND TIME

ESSENTIALLY AAAAAAAAGGGGGH I HATE THIS GAME because of the people in it not the structure and moderation, that has been very good so far :)
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Although is it possible that the tribal forum could be shut down during this period? I still think that's a way of conversation that not everyone is gonna have access to over this weekend

#smallgripes it's probably ok, but it is a game freeze, after all
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OK SO:

As a million other confessionals have already told you, common conception was that the vote was being pushed as Nova and Zeratul with inklings of D.Va.

My stance on all this, from a personal standpoint was that I don't know how things are going to shake out following this vote. Thus, if two Alliance members are the common choice, even if they aren't the two I'd like to see go, I'm going to go with it because that is going to make literally so few people mad. Like sorry but Nova doesn't seem to be a factor in anybody's plans, and people like Abathur liked Zeratul but it doesn't seem he did anything right in the Alliance either, so I wasn't too worried about losing him, especially with stuff like Tyra/Kara/Valla and Ysera/Lor and Diablo and just all sorts of things developing. And as much as everyone hates the Heaven Alliance apparently and they are a total shade factory, I honestly didn't want to be so blatant in my ostracision because they did manage to control Alliance while it lasted.

So that's from a personal view. So the way I sold it, and mind you I guess I wasn't very involved, I was very busy and just didn't really care too much about this vote, plus I was afraid of becoming the big move for the Heaven Alliance. The way I sold it was that Nova/Zera is truly an easy choice, and IF THE D.VA VOTE FAILS THAT IS PEOPLE WE HAVE MADE ENEMIES OF FOR GOODSIES. The lines in the sand are blurry at this point; I don't know who is sticking with those three and who was just along for the ride until they found a cuter ship. But the point is, maybe this crazy 16-person 3-immunity 2-voteoff Tribal Council isn't the place to leap for a big move, especially when you can kind of assume that they'll be at most 3 in a 7-person tribe (this is pre-returning-player-spec tho!!!).

So yeah, I guess I wasn't urging this as strongly as I could've, because tbh a D.Va blindside would've been immaculate fun in a pretty standard game bootwise (from my perspective (ok I guess I was completely #spookt by the Ana vote)), but I also felt that Ysera and Valla and Tracer weren't exactly bringing plans to fruition concerning this. So I just assumed it would be Nova for sure and Zera hopefully or a Heaven Alliance blindside that would hopefully not be me (because I had been trying to look as untimidating as possible and as friendly as possible).

BUT DAT VOTE RESULT THO . . . oh my gosh. So like, I cast my final vote at like 1 because Ysera was like "well if you're sticking to Nova/Zera vote Nova because that's a surer thing". So like, there was 6 hours between that and the deadline, during which I was at a SPECTACULAR Christmas gathering slowly succumbing to a cold (seriously, dont be the person handing out presents if you have the runniest nose in human history and also feel like something is going to pour out of a cranial orifice every time you move your head). Anyway, I got home and had about 45 minutes left to deadline, but my sickness pretty much laid me out for 15 hours.

So I get up this morning and read Valla's PM, which I guess did detail the D.Va plan, but omg, things were still so uncertain?

Valla's PM
 
From what I understand here are where the votes currently lay (provided no one is lying to me):

Ysera/Tracer/Zera/Dia-DVa
Dva/Symm/Soldier/Abs/Naz(?)-Zera

That leaves You/Me/Karass/Az/Lor/Winston/Nova


So, really, THIS WAS THE MOST SUREFIRE INCLINATION I HAD OF PLANS FOR THE VOTE. And Ysera was telling me half the time that we shouldn't vote D.Va if we don't know the votes are there. Meanwhile, the votes were most definitely there, HOWEVER . . .

The Idol. And y'know, part of my thought in going with Nova/Zera plans was that if the Heaven alliance did have an idol and they heard the D.Va "rumours" (RUMOURS!!!), they would play the idol and waste it (WASTE IT!!!), while simultaneously thinking that we are maybe a bit more trustworthy than they gave us credit for.

BUT NO ABSOLUTELY NOT THIS WAS A TERRIFYING 8-3-3-2 VOTE. And what's terrifying is that had I been able to get on in those hours, I totally would've probably switched my vote again and put myself in a tie situation, where I think a lot of people are liable to take advantage of the situation to get rid of me.

Anyway, let's break the results down into parts, really only two parts, the first is the 8-3-3 part. So who all voted for D.Va? I would safely assume Ysera/Zera/Tracer. Valla says Dia was firmly aboard but when I talked to Diablo he was all about Nova/Zera for the apparent safety of it, so I don't know. I think Lor would've gone there if Ysera is there. But like, of the rest??? I don't have a clue. And who #StuckToThePlan and voted for one of Nova/Zera? I'm one of the votes on Nova; I think Karass as well because Valla told me that she was too frightened to vote D.Va (which like . . . what but also YEAH but also if you gave the inclination that you were "scared" your weaknesses are showing girl). I think Nova could've also stuck to a Zera vote but it really depends on what Nova was thinking could save her, and since the plan from my POV was always "Nova AND [Zera/D.Va]" I can't really imagine what she thought would be the best ploy to save her, lol. Abathur would've voted Nova if he didn't vote D.Va, he was trying to mend fences with Zeratul. And, most importantly of all, the Heaven Alliance and the Alliance as a larger whole was theoretically voting Zeratul, H O W E V E R . . .

WHY ARE THERE TWO, NO MORE, NO LESS, TWO VOTES ON ME?!?!?!?! There are several tangents to break into here. I mean, let's begin with WHERE those votes came from. Is it a similar strategy as seen in the explosive Alliance TC where the Heaveneers and their underlings split their votes to ensure their safety even if Rand did not go home? I honestly prefer that to be the case. Because if it came from any other territory, it's really a complete blindside to me, I can't imagine what pair of people would be like, "oh, we should take advantage of the disarray to cast votes on Tyrael and possibly send him home." ?? ?? ?? ??

Secondly, and relatedly, why are there votes on me, and only two votes? This is the most bamboozling, really doin me a concern. I could've understood and was kind of looking forward to seeing the humor in me booted again at a shipwreck, but for this time I would've thought it would've been for an entirely different reason. Karass has marked me as a "social threat" (though, aside from the fact that apparently everyone likes me, this isn't a public idea), so maybe a big group of peoples were taking advantage of the occasion to get me out? But that would've had to have been a big, D.Va-esque scheme to take me out, and not to toot my own shofar, but that would've had to have been big enough that someone would've warned me, right? But -- even worse -- are there people out there that just valued me less than Nova and Zeratul and chose to vote me due to a lack of connection? Like maybe Nazeebo? I just can't see anyone else doing that. So I have to think it was a form of insurance, in case another idol was played in addition to Symmetra's on Nova or Zeratul.

So where does all this leave me? I'm just incredibly frustrated because I did the honest thing, I voted in line with the Nova/Zera plan, out of an honest belief that is the best path forward for me, that it would get rid of two people no one necessarily cared a whole bunch about while keeping things peaceable with the Heaveneers. But with eight D.Va votes, it's now incredibly hard for me to sincerely sell "hey, I really did vote Nova like we agreed to, I had heard inklings of the D.Va plan but no fully-formed plans ever reached me so I figured it was a bust." BUT THAT'S THE HONEST TRUTH AAAAGH and I feel like there are enemies on all sides at this point. I obviously wasn't a major factor in the D.Va vote, because I didn't get solid word of it until the final hours. Even if I try to work with the Heaven alliance, am I just selling my game to people who used me as a backup plan at this vote?

The biggest problem is Valla. I don't know if Valla is really close to me, if she really believes in the 3 amigos all the way to the end. I have a bit of cognitive dissonance going on, where on that first PM she was like "I have some RL stuff going on I can't deal with this right now" which kind of (and maybe rudely so) made me think she was a newer, less-serious player, but that is not the case at all. Valla is a very threatening player, she's a factor in everyone's plans. Does she see me and Karass as goats she can drag to the end?

But if Valla isn't my #1 ally . . . who is? Everyone else is considerably less close to me. I like Karass, Winston, Diablo, Abathur, but they are all distant and not as connected to me for varying reasons. I'm just very scared. It feels like the game really needs to start anew for me, because I don't know where people really stand and I DON'T KNOW WHERE I STAND AT ALL. Am I perceived as a social threat like Karass says? Or does everyone see me as a non-entity, the next on the list after Ana, Sarah, Nova, Zeratul?

I just feel like, so stupid. Everyone else probably has a solid grasp on what's afoot and all I see is a blurry starfield, and once again I feel like I'm just coasting to compromise boot. And I don't know why.

In a brief spot of positivity, this potential returning-player twist can't hurt me much at all. The first 5 boots I had no hand in except Kel'thuzad, who asked for us to vote him out; I never did vote Ana out (and she wouldn't have been out had she not self-voted), EVERYONE including her very self voted Sarah, Rend is bloodthirsty, and I like to believe he liked me during the first Nexuswreck. I don't know if Nova has any ill will toward me and may suffer from revolving door syndrome, and Zeratul I think still values me as someone whom he is very close to, plus he'll be bloodthirsty, plus he is Mr. I'mma-Send-You-to-Exile to me, after all. I just think there are people who are shaking in their boots at the thought of this twist, and I'm not one of them.

I hope this is what you mean by "good confessional". I woke up at 5 this morning, saw the results, and let all these words burble inside me and percolate for 15 hours. Part of me is like "I should write theoretical PMs for response once the game unfreezes for every player" but I don't know the gamestate after this, and I just don't know if that's a waste of time. Plus so many threads were left on "what are you doing with this vote?" and even though the vote is now done it's not so easy to be like "puppies or butts: which do you prefer"

aaahahhaha you know this holiday weekend is kind of the perfect time for the game to actually be going on, now that i think about it. look at all this free time i had to write this post. but it's not in session ahahahahaha
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I can't even put two pieces together on the now-obsolete idol puzzle, so that's a real confidence booster too
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WHAT A CONFESSIONAL *applause*
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what a post
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