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drugs?
Topic Started: Feb 10 2012, 07:21 AM (770 Views)
drowningxscarsxPgrrl
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Ye I used to get a lot of good ones but the effort! And good ones were getting rarer coz for some reason people prefer crapy, cheaper ones-which is stupid because the most u'll pay is €5! My friends say there's good ones now, I wouldn't really be bothered anymore
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I think the biggest danger of ecstasy and similar drugs is that you can never REALLY know what's going into them.

Scary stuff.
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ButterSquirrel,Apr 15 2012
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I think the biggest danger of ecstasy and similar drugs is that you can never REALLY know what's going into them.

Scary stuff.

I know theres rat poison :lol: lol
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Not sure why I'm admitting it here but I just went completely downhill because of my drug abuse (not because of drugs, I still believe they can be used responsibly).
The thing is, I was being a trainwreck and was acting like a clown for last ~8 months. No one ever said to me directly how bad things are, even though I looked like I was about to die (and actually was pretty close with amphetamine overdose, my fingers were getting blue). I only heard something like "you should stop taking those pills mate" once or twice from few people, but that was all they had to say, none of them wanted to listen to what I have to say.
Also, most of the people I considered to be friends were taking advantage of me or making fun of me so I seemed even more pathetic.
The paranoia and anxiety went so bad that I was seeing people in my garden, hearing voices (like proper sentences with voices of people I know) usually talking about my death or saying that I'm mental. I couldn't distunguish some of my dreams from reality.

I'm sober now, although the anxiety, depression and mood swings are extremely unpleasant and I'm sure I need some medication. It's quite strange cause sometimes I'm overconfident, ready to talk to anyone about anything and sometimes I can't even look people in the eyes and I'm scared to go to a shop.
I went to a doctor but he didn't even let me explain anything, as soon as I mentioned anxiety he prescribed me beta blockers (propanolol) and told me to come back in a month. It made things even worse cause my blood stream went down to the point I was almost unable to walk so I've stopped taking it and made a new appointment.

I'm usually happy during daytime and extremely depressed during night. I know I can't blame anyone but myself for this, but I really wish people were less ignorant. What pissed me off the most was hearing "what have you taken today?" after 2 weeks of sobriety despite physical dependence to sleeping pills, which basically was going through hell.
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bdx,Jun 4 2012
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most of the people I considered to be friends were taking advantage of me or making fun of me so I seemed even more pathetic.

What pissed me off the most was hearing "what have you taken today?" after 2 weeks of sobriety despite physical dependence to sleeping pills, which basically was going through hell.

That's really mean that friends tell you that.. "friends"..

that's very mean :/ hope you can get better soon
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I think you did the right thing going to a forum to talk about this, if you don't feel like anyone's listening to you. We're here for you, let us know how it goes. ;)
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Bdx:

I don't want to butt in too much but perhaps another doctor is in order if he isn't listening to you then that will be of no good to you. Have you been diagnosed with any illness?

I understand the anxiety and insomnia. I have been on anxiety meds since I was 12 and I have had insomnia for what seems forever. Once I went nearly two weeks with barely any sleep. I don't remember those two weeks basically but I knew I was having a nervous breakdown. I have been on anti-anxiety and sleeping pills ( like Ambien) for awhile now If you don't want anything too heavy I recommend melatonin. I don't know you but good luck to you.

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Yeah, it sounds like your Dr is not really working WITH you, he just sounds like he's gonna prescribe and expect you to take it. That can be good, I guess, but I think you need more than just prescriptions. Try to get some counseling, because it sounds like you need a good healthy relationship in your life. :(
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